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By G1rlie
12/11/2012 4:23:09 PM
So, today, I am badly missing Greg and I really feel like I want to ask him to come see me. And, I'm guessing he probably would. But, I'm not going to do this. Jusy for today, I am choosing to not do tho is. To help myself not do this, I called my cell phone company to turn off the data plan for my phone. Unfortunately, I still get wireless internet. Thinking of trading phones with my son who has a flip phone and turning off the data plan on his number. Not sure it is a good idea for him to have access to wireless internet on the phone, though.

Been going to lots of meetings with ARP to help myself. Doing everything I can think of to help myself stay sober. This is so hard. *sigh*

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I am there too.    
"Hang in there. I too cheated on my spouse and am really fighting the desire get back in touch with the wrong people. I know that this is 100% opposite of what I need and truly want. We will be stronger if we can resist."
posted at 20:00:44 on December 11, 2012 by Anonymous
You can do this    
"Girlie, I know exactly how you are feeling. You have that pull and that ache and you feel that Greg is the only thing that can fix it. Keep being honest with yourself, you're doing great! I've found that at times when the pull is strong, if I can just make it through doing others things, it eventually lessens and I can make it through.

Another thing that helped me a bit was that I felt so much physical/emotional pain right after the breakup, that actually served as a deterrent to going back. I really thought that if I had to endure it again, I would just break. Anyway, hope you're hanging in there."
posted at 10:08:22 on December 12, 2012 by yosemitesam
It's nice to not be alone here.    
"Thanks, Anonymous and Yosemitesam. It's really hard. Yeah, the thought of breaking things off with him again and hitting Yet Another and even lower bottom is a huge deterrent. I'm just noticing that it looks like if I don't make some more changes, I'm headed for a relapse. Praying to God that he will let me know where I am weak so I can be humble and so I can know where to strengthen myself."
posted at 16:04:57 on December 12, 2012 by g1rlie
Your welcome    
"It is a good feeling knowing your not alone. I am really feeling your pain. I want so badly to get back in touch, and just like you, I know if I dont make a change of corase, I will be right back were I dont want to be. My biggest thing is being honest with my wife. I need to tell here exactly how I am feeling, but its hard because I dont want to hurt her. But by not telling her I am making it worse."
posted at 17:54:43 on December 12, 2012 by Anonymous
Patience    
"I just pray for patience with myself in overcoming this. It's hard that it is taking so much time."
posted at 05:12:00 on December 16, 2012 by G1rlie
Patience    
"I just pray for patience with myself in overcoming this. It's hard that it is taking so much time."
posted at 05:12:46 on December 16, 2012 by G1rlie


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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

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