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i am triggering!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
By marie sober
3/11/2013 11:59:30 AM
I hate this when this happens when my addiction takes over and wants to rule over me....oh my. this is so hard...I'm still sober barely!!!!!! BUT I kind of want to give in so I can relieve myself from this fight of addiction....:(

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stop fighting    
"Pray. Call your sponsor. And come to the meeting tonight. Let them (God, Sponsor, group) take it from you. I know the rush you're probably struggling with right now. I would fail otherwise if I was in your shoes.

I'm not struggling with lust right now but I did wake up in the middle of a really awesome sex night mare and it's been depressing me almost as if it was real. I need to surrender my depression and desire to be lazy and avoid the world because of it. Lust is usually at the door if I get lazy/bored. So, I feel ya"
posted at 14:19:40 on March 11, 2013 by they_speak
@THEY SPEAK    
"Ya, thank you sweetie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm head to a mtg tonight. I already went today (noon mtg) and feel a little better but not totally. My relapses are nightmares..I just can't even though at this moment I really don't care which is NOT good. I have to care. I go full on when I relapse:( I'm struggling with lust. I love your 2nd paragraph"realy awesome sex " then end it with" nightmare" That is so the truth when acting out. It's awesome but after effects is HELL. Depression is a killer:( sorry. I get depress also. I have a few sponsors-maybe I will text them all right now. I feel I bug them cuz I'm daily triggering....this sucks."
posted at 15:32:07 on March 11, 2013 by marie sober
Same here.    
"But this will pass......."
posted at 17:34:14 on March 11, 2013 by g1rlie
Same here.    
"But this will pass......."
posted at 17:36:19 on March 11, 2013 by g1rlie
@THEY SPEAK    
"hey, the wise one who follows the spirit AND INSPIRES OTHERS! You sober still?? I'm SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm at day 28 sober. holy freak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;)
@G1RLIE your totally right. I woke up and feel fine. Who knows how long this will last but right now the fight with addiction is gone and I'm feeling pretty good and just want to get basic duties I have to get done today. Yae! I'm so glad I got through yesterday and woke up sober. It took 2 meetings. Texting people from meetings. And Prayer!"
posted at 10:47:27 on March 12, 2013 by marie sober
AND @THEY SPEAK COMMENT HERE MAJORLY HELPED!!!!!!!!!!!! HE KNOWS cuz I told him.    
":)"
posted at 10:49:26 on March 12, 2013 by marie sober


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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006