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Stuck in the middle
By wantfreedom
7/10/2013 9:07:20 AM
Hello everyone. I am an addict who has the desire to be clean. I just can never say no to temptation. I have had periods of recovery but none recently and today I feel hopeless. I busy myself with two jobs, summer school, hobbies, trying to be a good husband(yes, my wife knows of my addiction and its severity and she is VERY supportive of my recovery) all to keep me clean but even on days I am busy I mess up sooner or later. I really need some help and advice. I want these addictions gone. I want peace in my life. I want to feel worthy of not only the Savior's love but also the love of my wife. I feel like I filled her up with false promises and tricked her into marrying me. Like I said I feel hopeless and tired. I need to know there is hope that others have been freed from these chains I feel imprisoned in.

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Update    
"I know no one is online right now but I decided to look through past blogs for advice. As I have read I have tried to clear my mind as much as possible. So I wanted to change my question that I posed at the end of the above blog post. Surrendering myself to God seemed like a reoccurring theme(at least on the threads I was reading). I think that goes with steps 1-3 but here is my question. Last time I tried this website(under a different username) and attended meetings I felt like I couldnt move past step one until I was sober for a week. That I was stuck in that step. So how exactly do I use the steps? When I went to LDSARP meetings it seemed like half the people understood how to use the manual and the other half were just stuck doing circles like me. Is there something I am missing? I am excited to be back to feeling that I am ready once again to start the steps and be clean."
posted at 11:15:01 on July 10, 2013 by wantfreedom
Skip LDSARP meetings and attend a SAA or SA 12 step meeting    
"In my opinion, a person will get better advise that will last longer in one of these programs. In my opinion, LDSARP and PSAG is 12 step lite..too lite. I have never seen anyone with more than a year of sobriety at one of those meetings. It seems like as soon as people get some sobriety, they think they are cured and quit going. I guess if it works for you, wonderful, if you need stronger medicine try out a conventional program

the SA, SAA or SLA programs are more hardcore and is more of a longterm lifestyle. Of course there can be some cursing and less savory characters there but I have been very happy in those program and have found a measure of relief and over a year of sobriety. I still have a lot to work on but Im focusing on progress not perfection.

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posted at 14:26:48 on July 10, 2013 by hurtallover
Thank you    
"@hurtallover
Thanks for the info and advice. besides skipping LDsARP meetings and go to SAA is there any other advice people have on overcoming this?"
posted at 11:04:22 on July 11, 2013 by wantfreedom


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"Jesus rejected temptation. When confronted by the great tempter himself, Jesus "[yielded] not to the temptation‚ÄĚ. He countered with scripture. Gospel commandments and standards are our protection also, and like the Savior, we may draw strength from the scriptures to resist temptation."

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