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By sharkeisha
8/25/2014 8:20:35 PM
hi its me again, this is the only place i can find help but right now i dont really know what i need its just that i know what im doing is wrong and im not talking just about my porn and m.... problem things are getting worst its just that i LIKE so much what im doing like i love to smoke and the only thing that stops me is that i cant do it at home but every chance i have to do it I will do it because i like and its just that well i really dont know why am i writing this i know its wrong but i like it. i feel i like bad things always..
why am i a mormon girl i dont know if i should be "happy" but right now im feeling really sad and dissapointed. and worst thing is that i know im not "worthy" but i still go to the temple snd things like that i really dont know what to do im really sorry:(

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have some compassion for yourself    
"The self-loathing evident in your post is understandable - but don't beat yourself up. God loves you!

It sounds like you want to make a change. If that's true, then you can certainly do it! Start by talking to your bishop, find some friends that can help you, and make some small, tangible goals."
posted at 01:16:44 on August 26, 2014 by bestgmever
We all want bad sometimes    
"The natural man is an enemy to God. Since the fall of Adam, our desires have been selfish, carnal, and devlish. You are totally normal. You are just like any other Mormon kid to sometimes (or often) want to do and try things that aren't healthy for you. We all act and feel that way at times.

Just remember that God is not trying to boss you around with his commandments. He's trying to help. The things he says we shouldn't do will eventually bring us sadness, misery, sickness, frustration, etc. He's just warning us not to do them. He doesn't hate us or stop loving us if we do them, he's just sad, because he knows those things won't bring happiness, and they might bring great struggles.

When you are ready to make changes, he will always be there for you and love you. He accepts you. You have infinite worth to him. You will be blessed as you seek to follow his advice.

But even when you don't, he still loves you."
posted at 14:55:54 on August 26, 2014 by BeClean
Humans are complicated    
"Hey sweetie!
You sounds pretty torn up right now. Give yourself some permission to slow down. Not even God expects you to have it all figured out today. Find some quiet and some peace and let yourself meditate or pray and just connect with God for a while. You are ALWAYS worthy to pray and talk with your heavenly Daddy. Maybe just focus on that for a while.....

We are a complicated species. We can want two totally contradictory things at the exact same time. That can really confuse us, but it is where the greatest power of all comes in....our power to choose. One side calls for your whole heart and the other doesn't need 100%l, it just needs you to stay on the fence.

Sin wouldn't be tempting if it didn't feel good. It's pretty uncommon to pick up a sin that doesn't have at least some temporary strong appeal to it. Of course you like smoking! It makes you feel great! Same for porn! Same with loosing your temper and wildly screaming things at people. It feels awesome....for a while. But it will never satisfy.

You deserve the joy that stays and stays and stays. You deserve the 'feel good' that holds no regret. Remembering that you really, really, really do deserve that kind of happiness will help you find that kind of happiness.

Hugs!"
posted at 21:47:18 on August 26, 2014 by maddy
My two cents worth    
"sharkeisha,
It breaks my heart to hear you describe your feelings. I am sad that you are feeling the way that you do right now. I can only imagine how lonely and tough it is for you from my own experience in life.

Maddy is so right in what she said above about the things of the World never giving us satisfaction. I have had problems with overeating always thinking that some bit or food or ice cream would help lift my spirits. well instead of lifting my spirits like I thought they would, I hated myself all the more, at it just made me want to do it all the more, eat and binge and give up on trying to stay healthy.

If you are willing to take a little suggestion I would recommend taking it one day at at time, I know that sounds cliché and it probably is, but if you can get through today . . . you are fine. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not here yet you only have today. While it can be depressing at times for me to look at life that way because I want my body to be healed, I want to be able to do so many things physically that I simply wont be able to do in this life, being able to get through today is all that I can offer to the Savior. Elder Christofferson's talk on Our Daily Bread is so very applicable in this situation , how we have to rely upon the Savior daily for our survival.

for me it has been really hard to trust God, I am constantly afraid that if I give my life over to him, something will come up that will be too much for me to handle, that everything will be taken away from me. I am trying to repeat to myself the positive mantras of I am a child of god, I am strong enough, and I have enough. I have been told that saying these things to yourself enough over time will help counteract all the negative thoughts that have set in my mind over the years.

Something I heard once said was that you can never get enough of something that you don't need . . . It has been interesting for me to think about in a lot of different ways. God bless you and keep you

Cheers"
posted at 10:23:37 on August 27, 2014 by sjanderson


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