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By pittypat
11/24/2014 1:29:17 PM
My life hasn't been easy I'm trying to figure out why I was badly abused until now. My self worth just wasn't there I don't like people who have not abused who not be there addiction I keep wandering why do I have the courge to walk away and not gone back or hurt this much or understand that hurt. I even feel so strange to put my self in the social church gathering for people like me I want is a parent as a child a mom or a dad I didn't. No friend so since of belonging to any one church school and coming back home where I dnt belong bad idea my aunt is pushing me to make new friends go to a movie with them

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anonymous    
"I don't understand what about abuse and going home I don't understand u comment"
posted at 20:15:28 on November 24, 2014 by Anonymous
You aren't the lone ranger    
"Abuse is very common among addicts. This is one branch of the root of your drug addiction. It was also one of the roots of my addictions. Every single addict I've ever talked to or read about has had some type of emotional loss through a beloved family member dying, sexual, physical or emotional abuse, or just something that caused a loss in their life. I did not get a handle on my addictions until I began dealing with the years of sexual abuse I suffered as a child.

I used drugs to deaden the hurt, to escape my inner pain. The ONLY time I felt human during the worst time of my life was when I was higher than a kite on narcotics. You did the same thing with drugs. You've got to find another way to fill that void in your life that drove you to drugs in the first place.

I recommend you do two primary things to help your recovery. The first is you must fill the spiritual void in your life. You tried the drug track and that didn't work. Now try the spiritual track. Attending church won't be enough. You've got to immerse yourself in Gospel studies. Study your scriptures, but don't just read them; STUDY them. Cross reference them with conference talks and Ensign articles. Go to lds.org for starters. You can search the web site for any item that interests you.

Second: Get help. I never had friends as a child (my own choice) since I didn't trust anyone. However, you've got to find someone you can trust who will help you work through the abuse you suffered. This is absolutely vital to your recovery. It will hurt; you will get angry and frustrated, but you MUST do this. Also, involve your bishop. He will understand and not be judging. If anything he'll be ecstatic you want help.

Your recovery is up to you and no one else. Do it right and you'll never relapse. Do it wrong and you'll go right back to your past."
posted at 22:09:11 on November 27, 2014 by Anonymous


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— Terrance D. Olson

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