By therenow
8/17/2010 5:18:44 PM
each day in the late afternoon was when I would have my "sundowners". As that time rolls around, I feel depressed, no energy, flat as a pancake. Yesterday, I gave in. Immediately, I felt a surge of interest and energy. A desire to take up my hobby of wood carving, something I have dropped for lack of interest and energy. I continue to read and study the scriptures and am developing a high level of curiosity in them, buying books study books on the BOM and the Old Testament.The Covenant with Abraham, etc
But, as I take a drink, it seems my interest and feelings of the spirit increase. Wow. Am I confused or what??

I want to go to the temple this week but am hesitant due to my falling back. I want to go there to plead with the Lord to remove this from me but I know he cannot. He can only help me through it. I am so weak it is disgusting to me.


Ain't it the truth!    
"When I was burning the candle at both ends, as a single parent dad, as a truck driver and just plain working too hard, I developed a dependency on stimulants. I could not function without them, not at work, not at home and not at church. When I took a shot of 5 hour energy with two excedrin and a diet coke I felt energized and driven. Without it, I felt drained. My sundowners came at various times of the day. To make my self appear on top of things I took them before church meetings and also before going into the Temple. The Lord has been merciful to me. I have learned to train my body to slow down and get more sleep.

I have in my memory banks the experience of blacking out behind the wheel of a tractor trailer pulling a 53' trailer with over 70,000 lbs of office furniture. I now drive a school bus and the anxiety of falling asleep behind the wheel of a school bus is very sobering. I will get my sleep and I will cut way back on the stimulants. No more energy drinks or 5 hour energy.

The question before us though is this "Flat Feeling", no natural energy, no desire etc. Perhaps you may need to see your doctor and find out if you have clinical depression or some other "dragging your behind on the ground" kind of disorder.

When you are stuck in the mud, the Lord has a way to pull you out. Believe it!!!! It sounds like you have a 4x4 but you are still using 2 wheel drive. You'll get there. See your doctor, work the program, start an exercise routine and get hooked on endorphins, go home teaching when you are depressed.

one who still gets stuck once in a while."
posted at 20:33:00 on August 17, 2010 by migail3

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